Wednesday, April 14, 2010
SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE!!
I want to END my life! I fil lyk my life is jus a burden to evryone. D world wld b beta 4 many ppl without me in it. Yes! Thats how i feel. My brother just told me that im d onli one in this world that annoys him. He said dt im irritating said i lack wisdom and that he can never respect me. He spoke his mind nd he isn't sori. Evry one i get close to, i giv them sorows upon sorrows. My eyes r fild wiv tears. I jes want to disappear. Wat my brother said hurt! He was so cold nd bitter,... I thought he was ma bestfriend! But he's bin kipin dis in his mind since. I feel like shit. I'm just nasty. He said that my behaviour isn't nice at all. All this 4m ma junior bro. He said i don't respect ma elders tew. Nd he's right im just jerky 2 any1 n evry1. Even Lover Boy! Am sur that he's just putin up wit me. I'm so nasty nd unfair to him. I don't even feel like talkin to any1 agn. I onli make evr1 sad. I shld mayb enrol in sum convent nd bcum a nun nd dedicate ma lyf to God. Sometymz, i fil lyk am being punishd! Wat av i dun to deserve this? I pray n pray to God that i want to change nd then sumtin cums up nd i begin to decieve ma self dt am a guhd person. Yeah, right. God shld jus 4giv me. No one wnts to spik to mi agn like Tboi 4 instance. I evn culd im but he's stil actin like im 4cin maslf on im. I dnt blame im nyway. I SUCK! No one lvs me. I want to disappear. My exams' on Sat. I dnt knw y me nd ma bro had 2 av dis fyt today nd y he had 2 spil TODAY. I was just readin nd pow! I cnt concentrate now. I'l try nd 'cast ma burdens on The Lord' i wondr at times if Jesus evn.... no, i shld prolly nt say that... Yeah ok. I've vented! Not that i dnt stil fil horrible or luk a mess. I was actuali cryin in 4nt of evry1. I hope bro is satisfied nw. I jes want to get away 4m evry1 nd evriting! *sniff, sniff*